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Battle scars, inside and out - After the End's ~ Draco Malfoy
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Draco Malfoy
Date: 2007-11-01 01:04
Subject: Battle scars, inside and out
Security: Public
Location:My flat
Tags:(bellatrix), (crystal chamber), (lucius), (narcissa), (ron), draco, pansy
I was discharged this morning with strict instructions that I should take it easy for the next couple of days.

Right. Take it easy. My club is a mess, my face is a mess, and they are telling me to take it easy.

I know Mother would have rather had me go back to the Manor rather than my flat, but I refused her. I'm sure it hurt her, but I don't want to deal with her pity right now.

I stand in the bathroom, surveying the damage to my face. They did all they could do, but there is still a lot more cuts and bruises than I had hoped. One thing that the Malfoys have always prided themselves on having is perfect bodies, but especially faces. What in the world am I going to do?

Out of the corner of my eye, I catch the sight of movement in the mirror. Pansy's standing in the doorway, silent, just looking at me.

I stand there looking in the mirror for a moment longer before turning to her. "At least with my leg no one could see it." I don't know what made me say that, but that was the first thing that really came to my mind.

"They're not...horrible," she remarks.

"But I'm not the way I am before," I say simply, turning back towards the mirror. I wonder what she will think of me now.

"They'll heal and look better than they do now."

"But what if they don't? Are you going to still love me if I have scars on my face?" I turn and face her, looking into her eyes.

"They will," she assures me, taking a step closer before gingerly touching one. "At least a bit."

I notice she didn't answer both of the questions. How am I going to deal with knowing that my fiancee might break our engagement because my face isn't perfect? What made me do what I did? And am I going to regret it now? I decide to change the subject, because knowing what she might do if my face is scarred - I don't want to think about it.

"I wonder if it's even worth keeping the club open now. People are going to know what happened, they are going to know that I own it, and I can't see anyone coming to it knowing that I am the owner. What's to stop her from attacking again?"
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Pansy Parkinson: serious
User: ate_pansy
Date: 2007-11-03 05:18 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I shake my head. "Then that would mean she's won," I remind him. Bellatrix has no reason to attack again. She's done a lot of damage and probably expect Draco to close it. "You should fix it up and open it again."

He sighs. "But who is going to go there knowing a former Death Eater is the owner? She may not attack again, but it's always going to be in the back of peoples' minds that it happened."

"You saved Bell and you fought the Death Eaters. I'm sure that will mean something."

"I hope so. That's what Mother said too," he says, then looks in the mirror again. "I'll get it fixed up. It's going to take a lot of work." I have a feeling that he may be talking about more than the club.

"Looking into the mirror won't help things," I tell him then take his arm, giving it a small tug.

He reluctantly pulls away from the mirror and follows me to the sitting room. "I should have seen it coming, that she would attack on Halloween night."

"You thought she might," I remind him, thinking back to our earlier conversation.

"I know. I just feel responsible."

"She would have found a way, somehow."

He's quiet for a moment or two, then looks at me. "Pansy, I need to know the truth. If my face is scarred permanently, can you accept me like this?"

"I'm not shallow," I remark. "I can accept the scars."
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Draco Malfoy: worried
User: ate_draco
Date: 2007-11-03 05:20 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I try not to show how relieved I am to hear her say that. But the question is, am I going to be able to accept the scars, if they are permanent?

"It may take time before the club is back up to where it used to be. There was a lot of damage done," I say, not meaning just physical damage.

"You can rebuild it though," she answers.

"I'm going to," I say as a wave of determination comes over me. "No matter what it takes, I am going to get my club back up and running."

"Perhaps even better than before."

"Yes, because I am going to work on making the club safe for everyone." My leg is hurting, and I have a feeling that the stress isn't helping.

"Perhaps wards?" she asks, looking at me a bit quizzically.

"Yes, wards, the best that I can get. Maybe I should have the flat's security increased too," I say thoughtfully. "Let's go sit down on the duvet." I lead her over to it and sit down.

"You think they would try to come here?" she questions.

"I don't know but I'm not taking any chances. It's better to be safe than sorry when it comes to my aunt." I think about telling her what Mother told me in the hospital, but decide against it for now. If it happens, I will tell her. "Trust me, anything can happen and I want to make sure that we are protected."

"We've been well so far. Besides, not many know where the flat is, do they?"

"No, they don't, but," I say, thinking about Mother and what she said, "you have to trust me on this."
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Pansy Parkinson
User: ate_pansy
Date: 2007-11-03 05:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
"Why do I feel there is something you aren't telling me?" I know I'm frowning and don't mind. It's clear that he know something, but what, I don't know.

"There is something," he agrees. "But it was told to me in confidence. The wards are only a precaution for now. I can promise you this, that if the time ever comes that I have to tell you I will."

I frown even more. "Fine," I answer in a cool tone. Even if it was in confidence, he could at least give me some idea of what it was about. We had agreed no more secrets from each other, but that doesn't seem to be happening now.

"Pansy, I can't tell you everything, but I will tell you this. I'm not the only one that Aunt Bellatrix is targeting. That is the reason why I want to put the wards up. Do you understand what I am saying?" He looks at me earnestly.

"I'm not a fool, Draco," I scowl. Wizards and their secrets, yet they seem to expect witches to confide in them.

He sighs. "My mother has given me reason to think that she may have bigger plans in store. That the club attack is only the beginning. This is something that isn't going to go away, Pansy."

"I have had dealings with your Aunt," I remind him, frowning. "And I can't know what to expect apparently, even if there are bigger plans."

"Aunt Bellatrix is threatening my mother as well. We don't know what she is capable of."

"She is capable of many things, but she'd be back in Azkaban if she attempted something so soon after what just happened."

"Yes, and she's insane enough to pull such a thing." He sighs. "We just have to be careful and I'm asking you to believe me that this is something I have to do." He takes my hand and looks into my eyes. "I love you and I don't want anything to happen to you." He sits back on the duvet and looks tired.

I look at him for a moment silent before I respond. "You don't always have to do everything by yourself."

"I know," he says quietly. When I look in his eyes, I see something in them that I don't usually see. I see sadness, and I realize that the past months have really taken their toll on him. He stands up and walks across the room to look out the window, but says nothing more.

I stand as well and follow him, but stop a few steps behind him, waiting to see what he will say next.

He turns to me. "Why is it that nothing in life is simple?"

"Life is never simple," I answer.
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Draco Malfoy: normal
User: ate_draco
Date: 2007-11-03 05:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
She's right, but it feels like my life is more complicated than other peoples' lives. "I think I'll wait until Monday to get to work on the club. I don't think anyone will want to go there this weekend anyway."

"It gives you time to assess the damage and see what needs to be done."

"That it does." Going over to her, I take her in my arms. I wish I could tell her about what Mother said, but I think things are okay between us now. I just hope that Aunt Bellatrix gets caught before she does any more damage.
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